Now I know why one of the key blogging advice you hear out there is to be sure on what you want to write about and have plenty of material/posts available ahead of time.
Otherwise, you get a sloppy mess like the current state of my blog.
If anything, this has become a blog showcasing what you SHOULDN’T do.
Learn from my inexperience and insecurity, damn you!
But I am learning. Slowly, painfully slowly. But it’s happening!
So here’s a little update on what I’ve been doing and things that have changed.
Heh. Remind me to do a post of Self-Sabotage. My NaNo2011 had no chance of success from Day 1, mostly because I sort of pretended I was completely ready when I wasn’t. I still haven’t completed that outline. I don’t know how or why I convinced myself I could write 3k when I knew I wouldn’t start writing till the entire outline was completed.
But that doesn’t mean I haven’t made progress.
In fact, I made a critical breakthrough!
I started a novel writing course from Long Ridge Writers Group () (I totally recommend their courses. The quality one-on-one instructor-student relationship is totally worth the price in my opinion) via email. For the first Assignment, you have to submit to your instructor two novel ideas. I submitted both PROPHECY, my current 2008 WIP that needs to be DONE ALREADY, and BEASTS.
My wonderful instructor gave me insight I had craved for since the moment I finished the rough/zero draft of PROPHECY. She told me that the story, while strong, had an ending that wouldn’t work for a first novel from an unpublished author.
Thus, after two years of working on PROPHECY OF THE ETERNALS on and off (mostly off), I’ve finally decided to temporarily shelve the project and work on something else. She explained the reasons who clearly and logically, that I was able to do it without any resistance. It felt right.
So now I’ve started working with my YA urban fantasy novel, BEASTS. This time, I have no plans on taking 2 years to get to a second draft.
One step back, two steps forward…in a new and hopefully better direction.
Next, I need a better paying job.
I needed it yesterday.
But, as is painfully clear, I take forever to get around writing anything. So making any money from my writing anytime soon is out of the question. Putting pressure on myself just made it worse.
Okay, I’ll take off the pressure a little. I’m still gonna try to make it work, but even if I did get published or self-published I probably wouldn’t make what I need to make…or at least not soon enough.
Thus, I’ve decided to search for a bonafide job job.
One I can do from my computer here in Puerto Rico, until I can move to the States. One where I work with amazing people I WANT to help and learn from.
Still, with no college degree, this is going to be interesting.
Oh! I nearly forgot.
Thirdly! My return to college. It was a hard decision, but in the end, I decided to not do it.
The school I wanted to go to…well…wasn’t exactly cheap. And I doubt I can find any other college degree course that appeals to my extremely limited budget that doesn’t put me neck deep in debt.
Thus, I’ll take the more difficult path and carve my own way with the skills I have now.
So to whoever’s keeping score: that’s three plans/goals down the drain. They just wouldn’t work.
It’s hard to accept sometimes. But to realize something isn’t working than keep trying to force it to work and waste a lot of time.
In summary, my new goals:
– LRWG Novel Course: Working on new YA fantasy novel, BEASTS.
– Short Stories for submission and/or/maybe self-publishing.
– A writing/publishing/entertainment related job.
– Art Practice Habit – 3 hours a day.
– Not going to Art School anymore.
– Not working on Prophecy anymore.
– On the job hunt.
Have you ever had to drop plans and goals that just weren’t working out? When do you know it’s time to call it quits and try something else?